NADIE
ES
CAPAZ
DE 
MATARTE
EN
MI
ALMA

Hurts so deep when I think too much 
And breathing gets harder. 

 Take a look at me From one side 
I seem to be 
So calm, so cool, collected 
And on the other side,
I'm melting down 

 Stop and think about it 
You only have one life
So why mistake it
As something negative?
I am my own worst enemy 
Paranoid, can't avoid this killing spree.
I am a victim, but 
I choose to be 
My favorite weapon, lies behind my teeth.
I strive to solve myself

[Breath In , Breath Out - Set It Off] 

I'm half the man I used to be ♪ 

"Proud To Be Loud"

Listen up good
I got a lot to say
I know what I want
And I get my own way
I call 'em as I see 'em
I don't play by the book
One dose of volume
That's all it took
I've seen it, I've done it
I've heard it before

Now it's my turn
To settle the score
I'll sing it, I'll shout it
I'll say it again
I don't care if they
Never give in cause I'm

PROUD TO BE LOUD
PROUD TO BE LOUD
YOU KNOW I'M PROUD
PROUD TO BE LOUD

Well I've alway believed
In freedom of speech
And i've always been the one
Who practiced what I preached
L O V E  I T  O R  L E A V E  I T
I'll give you the choice
But it'll snow in hell
Before I lower my voice
I live it, I breathe it
I gotta have more
It's full blast
And this means war
The power, the glory
Its callin' my name
I won't start to
Play their game cause I'm

PROUD TO BE LOUD
PROUD TO BE LOUD
I'M PROUD TO BE LOUD
AND I'LL NEVER
TURN IT DOWN AGAIN NO!!
PROUD TO BE LOUD
PROUD TO BE LOUD
I'M PROUD,
PROUD TO BE LOUD

Look at me

I ' m B u r n i n g

"...To tell the truth , I don't have much to offer. But i'll still give you everything i've got, even of it's barely anything at all. Ill give you late thoughts, long hugs, someone to talk to, someone to care for, someone who will always be there, a hand to hold, somebody to lean on. And if that's not enough, just know you have all of me. I hope that's enought."

- Por mucho que huyera su sombra siempre se cernia sobre mi. Se semejaba con las grandes nubes de tormenta a las que le temia en mi niñez, aquellas que amenazaban con volar toda la ciudad con sus feroces vendavales. Siempre sacaron lo peor de mi, aun cuando por fuera me hacia el valiente e intentaba sonar relajado. 

    En ocasiones creia haberla dejado atras, pero cuando menos lo esperaba... cuando no habia nadie alrededor para socorrerme... ahi estaba ella. La observaba directo a los ojos, y aun asi no veia nada devolviendome la mirada. Era como observar un abismo por tiempo indefinido. No habia nada peor que la sensacion de vacio que me provocaba.

Me entraban ganas de correr lo mas lejos que pudiera, aun si tubiese que cruzar al inframundo para huir de ella. Creo que dentro del silencio pude escuchar su risa alguna vez, o quizas tan solo era mi mente jugando malas pasadas. Pero,... Acaso no era ella producto de mi mente tambien?.

    Ya habian pasado años desde la primera vez que nos enfrentamos, mi piel aun llevaba las marcas donde ella tuvo la osadia de rozar mi cuerpo. Pero esta vez iba a ser distinto. 

Esta vez.

Era a todo

O nada.

B  i  g  E  m  p  t  y -

Cualquiera en su sano juicio

se habria vuelto loco por ti

I'd rather waste my life pretending 
                         Than have to forget you for one whole minute...

You're lookin' so cool you're lookin' so fly, 
I can't deny that when I'm staring 
You down right dead in the eye 
I wanna try to be the person you want 
The person you need 
It's hard to conceive 
That somebody like you could be with 
Someone like me 

sometimes i just want to disappear 

i was hurt. lost in the dark. i couldn't think clearly, i couldn't understand how somebody so close to me could be so hurtful.
for almost four years she was de only one i saw everyday, the only one i cared. and then, it was simply gone, just gone.
without and explanation or anything to help me to understand.
but the truth is, that relation was ended even before his ending.


It was war, silent days with bad faces, mutual respect was lost, i couldn't trust in a person who lied to me so many times.
after understand the reality of situation, i felt good.


I thought i couldn't be with anybody.
my trust was broken 
my self-esteem
i was left with my thoughts & the darkness behind.

i didn't wanted to be with anybody, i didn't talked to anybody.


then you came into my life again
& you were like a twister

I am starting to realize

that I can do nothing on my own

Everything that I start to build crumbles into nothing!

A r o m a - A n t i q u e C a f e 

Even if you're not with me

I'm With You.

Cuanto te vi sentada en el sofa con Simon, incluso en ese momento ESO me hizo sentir mal... Yo deberia haber sido el que estuviera sentado contigo. Que el te hiciera reir asi. No podia deshacerme de esa sensacion. Que debia ser yo. Y cuanto mas te conocia, mas lo sentia... Nunca habia estado asi antes. Siempre que habia querido a una chica, despues de llegar a conocerla ya no la queria, pero contigo el sentimiento solo se hacia mas y mas fuerte. Hasta cuando volvi a verte y lo supe. Y entonces, descubri la razon por la que me sentia asi... como que tu eras alguna parte de mi que habia perdido y que ni siquiera sabia que me faltaba que te vi de nuevo...Que todo sucediera de esta manera parecia algun tipo de broma cosmica. Como si dios estuviera escupiendo sobre mi. Ni siquiera se por que... por pensar que podia conseguir tenerte, que merecia algo asi, ser asi de feliz. No podia imaginar que era lo que habia hecho para que estuviese siendo castigado de esta manera...

I screamed out, "God, you vulture (you vulture), 

Bring her back or take me with her."

Ya hace 3 meses del suicidio de Lex.

cerraron su tw, y nose si eso es mejor o peor.

cuando pienso en todo eso odio todo...

It's been so long, 
They say time will heal everything, 
Could you send me a sign, 
To fill the soul in my life, 
Turn on a light, 
To help me see through it all, 
No one left to rescue me, 
Save me... 

 Just one more talk, 
Just one more turn,
If one's too much then..
[Thank You - Hellyeah] 

-¿Qué crees tú? –Jace sacudió la cabeza- ¿Por qué he de decirte cómo me siento cuando tu
nunca me dices cómo te sientes? Es como golpearme la cabeza contra la pared, excepto que si me
golpeara la cabeza contra la pared, podría detenerme

.you are the only one i want. you should know that.

A veces. inclusive antes de que empezara con esto de dormirme tarde adrede sufria insomnio. a veces lo sigo teniendo.

No puedo evitar mirar a mi alrededor y ver lo efimero que somos.
el pensar que solamente disponemos de un par de años de mierda y ya.
no hay segundas chances, no hay segundas vueltas.
y pienso en todos los minutos perdidos
pienso en como mucha gente desperdicia el tiempo tirando su vida a la basura por nada

y me agarran esos ataques
intento hacer todo lo que puedo
pero aun asi es como que todo siempre sigue siendo un caos
y ya no se como arreglarlo,

alguna vez pensaste en como toda persona que conoces algun dia no va a existir mas?
no va a haber NADIE que te haya conocido.

tu casa no va a ser mas tu casa, va a ser la casa de alguien mas
que la va a cambiar y modificar a su gusto
y eso si es que la deja de pie.

tus cosas... todas ellas, desde la mas estupida, hasta la mas importante que tengas
van a pasar por generaciones de personas que siqueira conoces
hasta que pase a ser considerado basura

y en tu mente
cuando analizaste esto...
que fue lo que mas te jodio que no exista mas?

A veces quiero escribir.
por que pienso mucho todo, y necesito expresarlo de alguna menera.
pero me siento aca y no me salen palabras. ni ninguna cancion que pueda identificarme o usar en el momento.

ahora me duele la cabeza
y me siento harto de todo otra vez.

- G r e a t b i g w h i t e w o r l d -

Please wake me.
Please give me some of it back.
The feelings I had.

Sometimes I wish I could be strong like you.
It doesn't matter.
Each time I wake I'm somehow feeling the truth.
I can't handle.

In space the stars are no nearer
Just glitters like a morgue
And I dreamed I was a spaceman
Burned like a moth in a flame
And our world was so fucking gone

I'm not attached to your world
Nothing heals and nothing grows

Because it's a great big white world
And we are drained of our colors
We used to love ourselves,
We used to love one another

All my stitches itch
My prescription's low,
I wish you were queen
Just for today

In a world so white what else could I say?

Hace una decada nunca pense que podria estar al borde del a combustion. Supongo que eso viene con el territorio, un omnioso paisaje de interminables calamidades. Necesito que escuches, necesito que veas... que soporte todo lo que pude y explotar parece una buena posibilidad para mi.

Perdoname mientras ardo en llamas, pero he tenido sufieciente del mundo y los juegos mentales de la gente...

My biggest problem in life is:
I care so much for all the people i met, and no one cares enough for me

         - Suddenly i opened my eyes. At first i didn't even know where i was, then i remembered last night.
I fell again, darkness poured down from my scars & it consumed all i've got left of sanity. It isn't that hard to believe, i was always a grey person.
         But this time was different, i really dont have anything to keep me on the ground.

I was at the edge of the void. i knew any thing could make me fall.

I was trying to keep thinking in the right way. Keeping all bad thoughts out of my sight. It's almost as hard as walk out of a plane. But wait, at least i still trying, am i?.

I cant find anything positive in my life right now. & when i look backwards i just see failures & pain. and i dont want to keep feeling that way.

- I feel lost in some huge labyrinth. I see a mist covering my mind and is destroying it from inside out. I wasn't able to have any colorful thought. I was left just with the emptiness and the sorrow. Doesn't it have to stop in some moment?.

I found myself arguing with the mirror, just trying to find me in myself. Sounds stupid, doesn't it?. But when it all is reduced to a troubled mind it feels like hell.

And i was trapped between hell & a heartbeat...

Estoy con el humor y el animo justo como para escuchar el cd "the heroin diaries" en repeticion hasta que me tire de un puente.

El dia que tenga un/a hijo/a y entienda algo de la vida le voy a dedicar esta cancion:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7xA0XprjI_M

All this, see this, this is all variables. It’s random. It’s chaotic. Every equation needs stability, something known. It’s called a constant

if i could hold you one more time i'd never let you go. 

Alguien me ha dicho que la soledad se esconde tras tus ojos
y que tu blusa adora sentimientos, que respriras
tenéis que comprender, que no puse tus miedos
donde estan guardados
y que no podre quitartelos
si al hacerlo me desgarras

[Tratame Suavemente - Soda Stereo]

I'm so far away 
And so alone
I need to see your face 
To keep me sane 
To make me whole 

 Try to stay alive 
Until I hear your voice 
I'm gonna lose my mind 
Someone tell me why 
I chose this life 
This superficial lie 
Constant compromise 
Endless sacrifice

[Endless sacrifice - Dream Theater]

.Wake.Up.

It's like opening the eyes for the first time after i've been blind a long time

seeing the moon in the sky or the light of the stars.

sit tight and watch the sun cover your mind 

there's nothing better than sunlight in the moment you opened your eyes.

.N.ightmare.

Something change

& the mirror is gone

the empty room scream your name

you cannot escape this time

the reaper is inside your mind

Dont you see the place under your mind?

where the fears rise above the sound of the clock 

Illusion

Rise your arms up the sky 

closed walls

broken trust

trying to reach the sanity left behind

& seeing it walking away

i try to reach you (broke and gone)

i cant see you (forgotten love)

Dream

hell above, paradise lost

let me drown in my own blood

dont you see?
what you've made of me

a coward lion with empty trust

i try to fin you (but now you're gone)

i try to kiss you (vanished soul)

Sometimes i feel like i could do anything i want. i feel unstoppable , invincible. But then, when i have you in my arms i just wanna squeeze you and say you're mine. but you dont. & i dont know if someday you will.

Sometimes i think i'll keep trying, waiting for you to see me, keep fighting. like i always did.

But other times i feel like falling into the void.

.Find What You Love & Let It Kill You.

Escuchar Volbeat me dan ganas de ver " The Assasination of Jesse James by the coward of Robert Ford " (?
y me hace acordar a "el pistolero" de Stephen King

I will fight until the day the world stops turning 

& they will fall to ashes, I will just keep burning

I just can't let it die 

Cause her heart's just like mine 

And she holds her pain inside 

So if you ask me why 

She wouldn't say goodbye 

I know somewhere inside 

There is a special light Still shining bright 

And even on the darkest night 

She can't deny 

So if she's somewhere near me 

I hope to God she hears me 

There's no one else could ever make me feel I'm so alive 

I hoped she'd never leave me 

Please God you must believe me 

I've searched the universe and found myself Within' her eyes

[This i love - Guns N roses]

“I wish you were in this room with me right now. I wish I could put my arms around you. I wish I could touch you.”

—	Her, (2013)

“I would lose sleep every night just to talk to you a little longer”

“Everyone knows how to talk, and no one knows what to say.”

—	Nick Hornby, A Long Way Down

“Be with someone who would drive five hours, just to see you for one.”

“The hours between 12am and 6am
have a funny habit of making you feel
like you’re either on top of the world,
or under it.”

—	Beau Taplin || the hours between.

“ I think the saddest people always try their hardest to make people happy because they know what it’s like to feel absolutely worthless
and they don’t want anyone else to feel like that.”

—	Robin Williams

“I need to kiss you so badly. One of those kisses where I’m pressing against you as much as possible and my hands are in your hair and moving down your back, clutching to you in any way I can, kissing you as deeply as possible and thinking you’re mine, mine mine.”

“Happiness in intelligent people is the rarest thing I know.” -Ernest Hemingway

“I think that if I could fall asleep next to you every night, I’d never really be sad again.”

“I just want someone who won’t get annoyed when I text them six times or in all caps. Someone I can go on long drives with and can sing along to the radio with. Someone I can eat pizza with at 2am and kiss at 6pm. Someone who chooses me everyday and never thinks twice about it.”

“Life becomes more meaningful when you realize the simple fact that you’ll never get the same moment twice.”